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I feel very odd today. It's like I'm removed from the world. I think I even said I wanted to be that way yesterday when I was at work - that I wanted to remove myself from the world for a couple days. But now that I am, I feel very melancholy. I went out this morning for breakfast and video rentals. Even though I've had no interest in watching Elizabethtown, I rented it anyway. It was better than I anticipated. The bit about him going "home" struck a cord with me and reminded me of my home. Oh, and I thought the map that she gave him for his roadtrip was pretty spectacular. I wish I had the ability and knowledge to compile something like that. I even wish I had one of those maps to follow for a roadtrip. Jason's friend Sergio is trying to make some deal with a guy who owns a record store in San Antonio. Sergio wants to buy a bulk amount of records for the owner and just play a flat two or three grand for them. He wanted to know if Jason wanted to come along if the deal went through. I told Jason that it would be wonderful if we could both take a few days off work and drive there, enjoy the journey there more than the actual city. Then again, the chances of any of Sergio's deals working out are slim to none. He always has some business venture going on and they are always hairbrained.
So...yeah...I feel melancholy. I feel like maybe I should try to sleep through this entire week to get it overwith. It's a combination of many things, I suppose. I'm tired of winter. The weather keeps flirting with me and giving me a taste of spring before it drops back down to 20 degrees at night. I'm especially hormonal since I'm taking those lovely green placebo birth control pills that herald the onset of my period. Jason and I are doing a radio show tonight and that's not going to be finished until 1am. This means I can't exactly sleep through this entire week. I have a bi-monthly check run at work on Friday even though I took today off. I can't get myself to actually pick up a book and start reading. I feel like some sort of loose string flapping around in the wind if I don't have a book I am currently reading. This may be some weird neurosis of my own. I haven't written anything for quite some time even though I'd love to write something. Lost muse, maybe? Oh well. This could all be chalked up to my being in a funk, for lack of a better word. I just keep telling myself that if I can make it through Friday, then everything will be fine. Maybe then I can shake this feeling.
So...yeah...I feel melancholy. I feel like maybe I should try to sleep through this entire week to get it overwith. It's a combination of many things, I suppose. I'm tired of winter. The weather keeps flirting with me and giving me a taste of spring before it drops back down to 20 degrees at night. I'm especially hormonal since I'm taking those lovely green placebo birth control pills that herald the onset of my period. Jason and I are doing a radio show tonight and that's not going to be finished until 1am. This means I can't exactly sleep through this entire week. I have a bi-monthly check run at work on Friday even though I took today off. I can't get myself to actually pick up a book and start reading. I feel like some sort of loose string flapping around in the wind if I don't have a book I am currently reading. This may be some weird neurosis of my own. I haven't written anything for quite some time even though I'd love to write something. Lost muse, maybe? Oh well. This could all be chalked up to my being in a funk, for lack of a better word. I just keep telling myself that if I can make it through Friday, then everything will be fine. Maybe then I can shake this feeling.
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