In other news, I am feeling better. I think my meds are starting to be more correct, and I am starting to believe there is a light (which I can even see) at the end of the tunnel. I even stood up to the husband about his re-occurring "forgetfulness" and how he keeps forgetting to inform me of important things. He got pissy with me because I wanted to be angry after he apologized, but then he let it go when I explained that I felt it was becoming a trend, and indicated his disrespect for me and how he was angry with me. He claims that isn't true, and I can choose to believe that, or I can choose to become paranoid and think he is lying...I want to choose the less crazy path, and I hope choosing to believe him is that. I have been down the paranoia path before, and I hate who I become when I go down that path. And part of why I want to believe him is after all that, he let me keep the dog for one more night...she is currently sacked out on the couch with her paws up in the air and laying on her back in what looks to be an uncomfortable way...lol
See, finding the light, looking for the good in things...omg!!! each day a new piece of me comes back to life or grows from what was dead! thanks for letting me vent in YOUR journal and thereby, helping me to learn new things about myself.
PS-with mascara, I wear clear, just to accentuate, because when I wear black, it gets all over my eyelid and looks horrid.
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Date: 2008-09-23 04:05 am (UTC)In other news, I am feeling better. I think my meds are starting to be more correct, and I am starting to believe there is a light (which I can even see) at the end of the tunnel.
I even stood up to the husband about his re-occurring "forgetfulness" and how he keeps forgetting to inform me of important things. He got pissy with me because I wanted to be angry after he apologized, but then he let it go when I explained that I felt it was becoming a trend, and indicated his disrespect for me and how he was angry with me. He claims that isn't true, and I can choose to believe that, or I can choose to become paranoid and think he is lying...I want to choose the less crazy path, and I hope choosing to believe him is that. I have been down the paranoia path before, and I hate who I become when I go down that path. And part of why I want to believe him is after all that, he let me keep the dog for one more night...she is currently sacked out on the couch with her paws up in the air and laying on her back in what looks to be an uncomfortable way...lol
See, finding the light, looking for the good in things...omg!!! each day a new piece of me comes back to life or grows from what was dead! thanks for letting me vent in YOUR journal and thereby, helping me to learn new things about myself.
PS-with mascara, I wear clear, just to accentuate, because when I wear black, it gets all over my eyelid and looks horrid.